Tunnel Vision

I'm really working on not living with tunnel vision. I picture literally driving in dark, straight tunnel full speed, not looking side to side, and not slowing down. I know this seems a little weird, but really, it's what life can get like if we are so fast paced and focused on us and our needs and wants and desires and priorities. If it was our last day, how would that feel? Maybe I should make a bucket list :) But I want the list to be God's, Mike's and my babies, they are my absolute world. I want to cross off their bucket list and know that I'm fulfilling the desires of their hearts.

I don't want to not do the little things that make a difference to others, strangers, family. I want to water souls with cheerful words, help others, give a hand, put myself aside, be the cheerleader for Mike to be the amazing man that he is (ok not literally, but I guess I do still have it in me) make my babies giggle and get giddy with legs that move all around because they're so excited.

Last night at church Savi wanted so badly to go to 'big church' after I picked her up from childcare. I said no because it was late, but I gave in and to see her face light up when I said we could absolutely melted my heart. It made me take a step back and think...what is 20 minutes? If this was either of our last days, I would know that her sweet little soul was so incredibly excited by such a simple thing. We went in and ran all around, I chased her up and down stairs and she giggled and glowed. I was in a tunnel when I went into the night, I even told her earlier in the day that we wouldn't be going into big church. I'm so glad I got out of the tunnel and was able to brighten her little life and moment.

There are so many other things I could write about, but it's just a good reminder that when we step aside or back to think about others' feelings and desires, we can brighten someone's world and mend their heart. I hope I'm modeling this for my babies when we do things for others. I hope to teach my babies to not have a selfish heart, but a serving and loving heart that thinks about others first. I know this was all over the place, but it's what was on my heart today.

I'm blessed and so very grateful!